Smilez & Southstar || Tell Me
♫ Love. Hate. Mistakes.
Tell me what you think is going on.
Debates all day.
Tell me what you think is going on.
Too late. Heartbreak.
Tell me what you think is going on.
What’s going on? What’s going on…? ♫
He shared some news with me a few weeks ago and he didn’t get the reaction he expected. Now he’s removed me as his friend from Facebook, won’t answer my calls or texts, and wants nothing to do with me.
I’m hurt and heartbroken.
I blamed myself for a while. I admit I haven’t been the ideal friend lately. I’ve had some family drama and personal issues going on and I was more focused on that than anything or anyone else. I apologized for not really being there for him, but he won’t even acknowledge me anymore.
I miss him and I’ll always care about him, but the ball is in his court now. A part of me hopes that he gets over this sudden grudge he now has against me and we can go back to being friends again. But the other part of me just tells me to let him go for good because he pulled this stunt a couple years ago. I called him out on something and he didn’t like what I had to say. It took a long time for me to heal from that first falling out and now those old wounds are open and fresh again. If this is going to become a habit, then I don’t need it. It’s too painful and I can’t go through this anymore.
My heart literally hurts over this…but I’ll survive. He always went on about how I was his best friend and how much he loved me, but if it was this easy for him to walk away from me, without giving me a chance to explain myself or what’s been going on, then I have to question just how strong our friendship was to begin with.
“ If I told you that my heart hurt so much sometimes, I want to rip it from my chest with my own little hands…I would fall apart. And I don’t have time to fall apart. ”
(Source: lja-xo, via lawneejude)
“ My Bible tells me Jesus said you should love the Lord, thy God, with all thy heart, mind, and soul, and love thy neighbor as thy self. There are not asterisks on what Jesus said. No *except gay people, *except lesbian people, *except transgender and bisexual people. ”
